Wonder

Today was my first day to visit Timothy by myself. Up til today, I'd always gone with Paul or one of the grandparents, and I was a little nervous about how it would go. Would I be able to handle the nursing and the Kangaroo Care with just my two little hands? I'd always had the option of help before. Would I hit one of my emotional lows and need someone to talk me out of it and they not be there? I just didn't know how it would go. But, I'm not nervous anymore.
You see, I haven't been good about reading my Bible these past few weeks. I blame it on recovering from the c-section and being tired and worried. But in reality, I just let those things get in the way. In all my life, this was the time I should have been reading my Bible the most. So, I took my Bible with me so that I could read it during the quiet times.
I got there and changed his diaper and we started nursing and he did so well! After about 20 minutes, he got tired, so we turned on the gavage feeding and, somehow, I managed to get us settled in for Kangaroo Care. He was all snuggled up against me, skin to skin, and I pulled out my Bible and started reading Psalms out loud. And for the 30 minutes that I read aloud, his numbers were great. He didn't desat one time and his heart and respiratory rates stayed right where they should be. He slept while I read, but every time I finished a psalm, he would open one eye and look up at me until I started reading the next. And then he would close his eyes and snuggle back up and sleep.
It was one of the most amazing and wondrous things I have ever witnessed.